Are you holding the top down on your life? Are you living in shadows?
How often do we numb out to Life? Over a lifetime, with early hurts, feeling the need to please and painful relationships along with just the demands of living every day, we don’t know how to deal with it all. Shoving it away or down inside is easier.
At some point, we numb out, not even realizing what we’ve stuffed away. Our bodies react, trying to tell us through weight gain, weight loss or even pain. But, it’s just easier to become a human doing instead of dealing with it all.
Working with clients, I see this all the time. Precious, beautiful souls with hearts so big, that my heart breaks for them when we discover how numb they are to life. Most of the time, they don’t even know it. The numbness has become the nomal.
I’ve numbed out so many times, one time for years just to deal with a painful marriage. Getting through each day was tough enough. It was easier to put on a persona and make everyone think I was okay. But the truth, when I allowed myself to peek inside was that I was falling apart. All I wanted to do was rant and cry and say “Why me!!! Why me God?”
Over time, with persistence and surrender, I found that the only way was through. The breaking open of the way I had been was the seed of a new life for me. Embracing the new, forgiving the past and those who had harmed me, especially myself was the key to transformation. In hindsight, it was the best thing that could have happened and the lessons I learned served me well.
When I read the book Broken Open, by Elizabeth Lesser, I knew she was talking to me. It’s only when we peer inside and come out from the shadows, that we are able to begin to turn up the light.
Today, consider your life. Are you numb? What are you shoving down? Be fearless and unafraid to look in the shadows. Turn up your light.